Why do I get in such a state?

I spoke to Child 1 on Friday and asked if I would see her on Saturday (yesterday) and she had said “yeah probably”.  Since moving in with the boyf, we usually see her a couple of times a week, after work, when she either a) can’t be bothered to cook b) has no food in or c) the boyf is out and she can’t be bothered to sort a meal out for herself.  This really winds “The Pig” up as he points out, on a regular basis, that they have more income going into their house than we do! 

Anyway, yesterday she was a no show.  It got to lunchtime and I rang her, but got no answer so I tried her mobile, still no answer.  A couple of hours later, I tried both numbers again – nothing.  I rang  child 2 and asked if she had heard from child 1, she said she hadn’t but had tried to ring her at lunchtime to sort out a lift to a party, but hadn’t got an answer. 

Dinner time came and went and still nothing.  I left messages on both answer machines – nothing.  I was getting the hump to think that she was not returning my calls, “The Pig” said she was probably “pissed up” in a pub somewhere after watching the football with the boyf – charming!

I rang ex-husband in the evening, twice, but got no answer.  Rang Child 2 at party to find out where ex-husband was and she said he was out, which pissed me off as I was hoping he could go round to child 1’s to see if all was OK.

I went to bed really worried.  As I lay there, heart racing, thinking she could have been in an accident or worse still the boyfriend had chopped her up into little pieces and had deposited her into a suitcase and flung her off the cliffs, but then remembered, that at 5ft 10, he might have had to use more than one case to fit her in. 

I finally fell into a disturbed sleep, wishing that she still lived at home and wondering why she still doesn’t tell me where she is going, or why she has never given me the boyf mobile number even though she moved out 5 months ago and is 20 in 9 days time.

At 1.30 am I was awoken by a text message which said “Oh my god.  Ten missed calls.  Been at a party in Ashford all day.  Just got back had left mobile in doors.  Chill”

Oh dear no doubt I am in her bad books but I can’t help worrying, if only she had told me, in the morning, that she wouldn’t be round, all this could have been avoided.  It isn’t my fault is it?  even “The Pig” was getting worried!